It's All Good . . .

 

"It's All Good"

Is it?  Is it TRULY 'All Good'?

I know, I know, you're saying 'quit yer babbling and state what ya mean!'.  

I have a tendency to say 'It's All Good' when someone asks me how things are going in life.  It's my short answer for, 'not the best, but I don't want to go into it & bore you to death'.  

Which kind of person are you?  Are you one to say it's all good or are you one that will tell someone EVERYTHING that's going on in your life regardless if they want to hear it or not?

I can be both sometimes.  If I'm too tired to discuss anything I give the short answer.  If I need someone to just listen to whatever fresh hell is going on in my life, buckle up because I'm gonna tell ya! LOL

Just remember that if you're one to 'spill your beans', make sure it's someone who truly has your best interests at heart.  Not everyone does and just because they smile or pretend to listen, you could be giving them ammo to use against you in another situation.

Growing up I always believed people were good hearted like me.  As I've grown older, I've realized that I was living in a Norman Rockwell type of world in my mind.  More people are against you than for you.  That's so sad to me because I want to believe the best in everyone, but unfortunately, so many people are cut throat and just looking out for themselves.  At the end of the day, the only one you can truly trust is yourself, so be sure to protect yourself.

Am I saying all other people are bad?  Of course not.  There should be a tight circle of people you can trust, but keep that circle small.

I used to think that the more friends a person had was a sign that they must be pretty great and important and special.  I thought because I had so few of friends, I must be lacking something in my life.  I wasn't good enough, thin enough, pretty enough, wealthy enough, etc....  But time has taught me differently.  

The number of friends does NOT equate to your worth.  TRUE friends are extremely difficult to come by and if you have one or two you consider your ride or dies, then be thankful.

And just because you hang around certain people a good portion of time does not make them your ride or dies.  They are acquaintances, so be sure to keep them in that category when you want to share personal information.   An acquaintance won't have your best interests at heart.

Keep your feelings close to the vest and should you need to speak to someone, seek out a good therapist, one who is willing to truly listen and give you the tools you need to navigate this life, but DON'T share those feelings with an acquaintance.  

Protect yourself at all costs and I'll catch you on the flip side!

Blessed Be!

Keyboard Warriors...........

 

Let's Talk About Keyboard Warriors

I guess we're all considered keyboard warriors at some points in time, aren't we?  Everyone wants their opinion heard/read, and so we scream out into the void with our own version of what we feel is the 'correct' response/truth.  

I was reading a response to a special that was recently televised.  Some people love it and others aren't impressed.  I was one of the ones unimpressed and replied to someone else who was like-minded.  

I'd gotten a notification that someone else also commented on that same thread stating that if people didn't understand the premise of the special, that "Again, people who watch these series' assuming they are 100% fact, really aren't all that smart. "   

This had nothing to do with anyone's intelligence.  It was merely how someone felt about what was presented.  

I considered responding back, but decided against it.  What good would it accomplish other than irritating my emotions more?  We have to learn to walk away and shut it off for our own preservation.  

When things like this happen, I often wonder if I should have even put my thoughts out there to begin with.  It makes me feel like I'm not worthy and that's simply not true.  Our minds can trick us into thinking negatively about ourselves.  We need to stop those negative thoughts as soon as we realize what we're doing.  If we don't, it can take us down an endless spiral of depression and self doubt.

Most people, if confronted face to face, wouldn't say the things they type online as they're unable to hide behind a monitor.  There are some though that WOULD say terrible things to your face and those are NOT the type of people you want, need or should have in your life.  If someone can't have a rational conversation with you about any topic, you may want to consider just walking away.  They're obviously unhappy in their own skin and that's on them.

So be careful out there friends!  Avoid those keyboard warriors and try not to be one yourself.

Blessed Be!

Battling Jealousy......

 

            I'm probably the only one here that battles with jealousy.  

I'm not sure why, but I've always been a jealous person without much self confidence.  I'm sure it's due to my insecurity in my looks/body.  I wonder at times how anyone could possibly want me.  That's not being very nice to myself, is it?  

I've always been heavy and people have been sure to point it out to me my entire life.  It's either been my father, my mother's mother, classmates, co-workers, ex-husband... you name it, people have pointed it out as though I can't see it in the mirror every single day of my life.  And if people can't pick on me for anything else, they'll definitely define me based on my weight.

I love my boyfriend very much.  He tells me he loves me, but it's difficult for me to believe because I don't know how much I truly love myself.  

Because of my insecurities, I have a heightened awareness of other women he may look at or talk to.  In my mind, even though he has no intentions, my mind throws me into thinking he's scoping out someone else because of how I look.  

He gets quite frustrated with me because of my insecurity and I'm concerned it's pushing him away.  That's not my intent whatsoever!  But that green eyed monster takes over my brain and emotions.  If I can be honest, it's one thing I hate about myself.  If I could remove the jealousy, I would.  

Anyone who says they're not jealous at all is probably lying.  In some respects a bit of jealousy shows how much you care for your partner.  Too much, on the other hand, can cause relationship issues.

Because I'm also an over-thinker, the jealousy incorporated with that can be devastating.  My mind will race to different scenarios of what COULD happen.  That makes my mind race even more. LOL

While I know I should have a deeper talk with him, I'm afraid to.  He gets upset when I bring up him possibly looking at other women.  He tells me I don't have to worry about him cheating on me.  So WHY is it so difficult for me to accept that?  

It's something I continue to work on to be better and do better.  

Do you ever get jealous of your significant other?  How do you handle it?

Have a great rest of your week and I'll catch you on the flip side!

Do You Get Quiet? . . . .

 Do You Get Quiet?

In my life I've had a tendency to get quiet.  

What exactly do I mean by that?  Well, if I'm feeling overwhelmed, stressed, mis-understood, anxiety, etc... I tend to get 'quiet'.  It's been my go-to response when I don't know how to react to a certain situation.  

I don't know the right words to say so I become silent.  You know the saying, if you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all.  

Part of it is not wanting to say something I'll later regret and part of it is a type of 'freeze' or 'fawn' type of trauma response.  

I'm guessing I'm not the only one who experiences this in life.  Some people are ready to fight it out, defend what they feel is right... some, like me, just draw inward into a shell until the 'storm' passes over.  

Unfortunately, my quietness can be misconstrued to make others think I'm angry, or that I think I'm better than the other person, or just plain flaky.  

It's just my emotional response.  I don't always do well with confrontation.  It just depends on the situation and the lack of confidence I have in myself.

Empaths also get 'quiet'.

As the picture above states, Empaths get quiet.  We can get overwhelmed as we pick up on the vibes of all of those around us, constantly reading people, feeling their feelings.... and the only way for Empaths to try to re-ground ourselves is to get quiet, to shut out all the vibrations and noises we're being subjected to.  

If you're not an Empath, it may be difficult to understand how we absorb the emotions/feelings of most everyone we come in close contact with.  It's not a choice as it just happens, but the choice we do have is to create healthy boundaries, meditation and even therapy.

All this to say, please don't be too quick to judge someone who has become 'quiet'.  They just need time to process what's been sensed from others.  We eventually come back to our grounded selves. ;)

You Can Rest . . .

 You Can Rest

It’s a Saturday and as I sit relaxing, I reflect on years when I was forced to be on the run for one reason or another, feeling as though rest was only for the weak, that rest wasn’t even an option unless it was bedtime.

As I’ve gotten older and think of all the things I’ve been through, I realize how fortunate I am to still be alive.  Many have not been gifted that privilege.  I’ve also realized that it’s OK to rest.  

Just because others try to dictate how your time/life should look, NO is a complete sentence and you DON’T have to do anything you’re not willing to do. 

It’s taken me YEARS to accept this.  Sitting and watching tv, relaxing is allowing your body to recharge and recover from all you’ve been through during the week.  No one recognizes how much life drains the body and the mind.  

The mindset of RUN, RUN, RUN in life is not healthy.  The body can only endure so much and HAS TO have time to RECOVER.  

Don’t let anyone else rule your mind/body.  You are the only one who knows how you feel.  If you’re tired/exhausted, it’s ok to rest and it’s ok to tell others you’re busy.  You have the absolute right to take care of yourself.

Blessed Be! 

Toxic Positivity . . .

Toxic Positivity

Definition:

Toxic positivity is a "pressure to stay upbeat no matter how dire one's circumstance is", which may prevent emotional coping by feeling otherwise natural emotions. Toxic positivity happens when people believe that negative thoughts about anything should be avoided.

Hello everyone!  I hope you're doing well.  

I wanted to discuss the topic shown above.  

While I do believe we need to try to be optimistic in this life, sometimes things just suck and 

you know what?  That's totally ok!

There are some people in this life that shoot unicorn farts out their bum.  They see rainbows 

and sunshine constantly and never see life as it truly is, which can be so debilitating 

for those of us who see life as it truly is.  

The toxic positivity can be so depressing and draining.  It creates such a mental/emotional

burden on those who don't wear rose colored glasses.  It's extremely draining.  

When you have to deal with someone on a daily basis like this, it has a tendency to 

cause a level of depression that can be a struggle.  Day after day, week after week, it can

wear a person down.  

I have someone like this that I work with on the daily.  I can sense a happier & much easier

going day when this person is away from work.  No, not just for me personally, but the 

day is so much lighter for all involved.  

When someone displays toxic positivity, they have a tendency to try to force their fluff

down everyone's throat that they come in contact with.  

Do you have someone in your life like this?  If so, how do you deal with it?

Do you suck it up and keep going, or did you change jobs?

I love my job, I just don't love the toxic positivity.

May you all create healthy boundaries and live a content, peaceful life.

Blessed Be!

Quiet Time . .. . .

 

How Do You Shut Out The Noise?

How do you wake up in the morning?  Do you hit the ground running or do you hit the snooze button a multitude of times?  

For me, I usually end up needing to go to the bathroom before my alarm clock even has a chance to go off.  When I get up, I'm one of those people who is attached to their phone and catch up on what's happened overnight while I'm sitting there.  It's a small part of my day where the phone isn't ringing, someone isn't complaining about something, the animals haven't created chaos yet and my world is quiet.  

I don't care who you are, everyone needs some quiet time all to themselves without disruption.  It's a priceless commodity needed by all.  

Between work and home, myself as well as most people rarely get that quiet time,  When I was married I'd have to hit the ground running with no thought for myself.  I'd get the kids up so they could get their chores done before school, have something for breakfast and get ready in time to catch the bus.  I'd be rushing around getting myself ready for work and flying out the door.  I'd work 8-9 hours each day, take a half hour lunch to either pick up my ex's prescriptions or go find him mowing somewhere to take him lunch, go back and work the rest of the day, get off work, head to the babysitter's, pick up the kids, rush home and hurriedly make something for supper because my then-husband wanted to eat by 6:00 so he could nap until 7:00 to get ready for the night shift and leave around 8:30.  While he'd be napping or getting ready I'd be doing dishes, laundry, helping kids with homework and/or trying to spend some quality time with them.  We'd all be relieved when he left for work, but I'd breath a bigger sigh of relief when 9:30 rolled around as I knew he was at work and would never call unless there was an emergency,  

That was my life on the daily for most of 20 years (and then I wonder sometimes why I'm so tired these days! LOL).  

Point being, quiet time was not a luxury I had very often.  

After my divorce between LOTS of therapy and meds for my anxiety and depression (as well as being diagnosed with PTSD), I've learned the TRUE importance of quiet time.

I'm thankful for anyone who has not had to experience the hell I've been through.  No one deserves that type of treatment.  

While I'd love to meditate, I struggle with that as it's difficult for me to be completely still with no social media or tv going.  It's something I want to work towards.

For now, my morning bathroom vigil will do for now.  😜

How do YOU find quiet time in your day?  The bathroom?  A quiet few moments sitting in your vehicle?  A warm bubble bath?

Taking that quiet time is the best gift you can give yourself.  It will help you to re-group, get centered and grounded before you face the day or night.  

May you have daily quiet time in your life!

Blessed Be!