Pressure..............

Hi Gang! 💗

Happy Friday to you all.  It's a beautiful day here and I hope it is where you are too!

As you can see by today's title, our thought path for today is about [[[PRESSURE]]].  

We all have pressure in one form or another, whether it's pressure to be at work by a certain time, or pressure to get bills paid by the due date, pressure to decide what to buy someone for a gift, pressure while you wait to find out if your loan has been approved, and the list goes on and on.  

An old saying that always rings true is "Life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of how you react to what happens".  In other words, we can put ourselves under so much pressure when it isn't even necessary.  But while we live on this earth in these fleshly vessels, we're still human and don't always react from a rational, reasonable place.  

Whether we want to admit it or not, renewing the mind on a daily basis is SO necessary.  

Romans 12:2
And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. 
Ephesians 4:23 - 
And be renewed in the spirit of your mind;


When we feel pressure from life, we need to divert our attention onto more pleasant things.  That's sometimes easier said than done, but it's also why it's so important that we come together with our church family so that we can build each other up, strengthening one another in the spirit.


 Hebrews 10:25 New Living Translation (NLT)

²⁵ And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near.

 There is so much pressure in this world and as the days march on, the pressure is getting worse. 

 Matthew 24:4-8
 “See to it that no one misleads you. For many will come in My name, saying, ‘I am the Christ,’ and will mislead many. You will be hearing of wars and rumors of wars. See that you are not frightened, for those things must take place, but that is not yet the end. For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom, and in various places there will be famines and earthquakes. But all these things are merely the beginning of birth pangs.” 


While everyone's pressure is different, we all still have it to deal with.  We just need to remember that God is LARGE AND IN CHARGE. 

2 Chronicles 20:15  ~ New Living Translation
He said, "Listen, all you people of Judah and Jerusalem! Listen, King Jehoshaphat! This is what the LORD says: Do not be afraid! Don't be discouraged by this mighty army, for the battle is not yours, but God's.



If we can hold on to God's promise that He's in charge and He'll take care of us, it will give us so much peace of mind.

When I was going through my divorce 5 1/2 years ago, it was difficult for me to fall asleep due to the pressure I was feeling (how will I survive financially, where will my son and I live, am I a disappointment to God because I'm getting divorced, will everyone shun me and believe the lies being spread, etc...).  When I would lay my head down on my pillow at night, I would repeat the following:

• I am the righteousness in Christ Jesus
• I am the head and not the tail
• I am above and not beneath
• I am more than a conqueror 
• Greater is He that is in me than he who is in the world

They soothed my spirit and soul and allowed me to be lulled into a sweet sleep.  The thing is, I had to remind myself nightly to repeat these truths that God has given us.  It got me out of my own head and away from the turmoil I was dealing with and put me in a place of peace and rest.  That's what God's word does for us.  It's why it's important to renew our minds daily when we're under all the PRESSURE of this world.

I pray that you're healthy, happy, safe and I pray that you have PEACE in your life!

Love,

 

Over-Thinking.................

Good Morning Gang!

Happy Monday! 

Today's thought path is 'Overthinking'......................

I think the title is pretty self-explanatory, but if not, it's about thinking too much about anything.  This is something I've struggled with the majority of my life, but I'm trying to overcome it.

What do YOU overthink about?  For me, it's usually relationships.  It doesn't matter whether its a friendship, intimate relationship, someone in my family, etc.... when something happens I tend to over-analyze it.  I think about the person's facial expressions, body language, words, texts, etc... and try to figure out the truth or deeper meaning behind what they've said/done. 

I've always considered myself a fairly perceptive person.  I take notice of when people are not acting themselves.  While it makes me more attentive, at first it can make me feel anxiety wondering if I've had anything to do with them feeling bad.  I'm overly sensitive about that.  I care deeply about people and don't ever want to hurt them. 

When I approach someone and ask what's wrong and ask if I've done something, the answer is usually a resounding 'No! Not at all!'.  I have to admit it gives me a sense of relief as I don't like to cause anyone any pain.  I'll usually ask because maybe they've seemed distant from me or something in their body language.  Most of the time it's just them turning inward (kind of recluse) to quietly deal with whatever their circumstances are and it has absolutely nothing to do with me. 

I'll go more into the whole 'body language' topic in another blog.  For now, lets focus on 'Overthinking'.

In the scenario above, I'm overthinking about what I may have done to make the person angry or sad.  I go back into my memories trying to remember previous conversations we'd had, what was said and how it was handled.  Did I mis-speak?  Was I too harsh?  Was I not giving my full attention?  Most of the time I don't recall anything, but let's face it.  We don't always remember absolutely EVERYTHING we've said and done, especially if we're trying to multi-task.

I had a situation a few months ago where someone said I flipped them the bird.  I was appalled as I didn't remember doing any such thing.  I'm NOT perfect and I HAVE done that before in a joking situation.  The person claiming I'd done this didn't take it that way.  I spoke to the person's spouse who confirmed that I'd done it.  I apologized repeatedly.  There are deeper notes to this story, but for time and confidentiality, I won't go into it any further.  Needless to say, I stepped down from the organization we were both a part of.  I did a LOT of overthinking about that situation trying desperately to remember doing it, but still to this day I have no remembrance. 

Have you ever received a text from someone and wondered what in the world they meant especially if you replied asking and received no response?  Have you ever sent a text only to be left hanging waiting for a response wondering if what you said may have offended the person in some way because they hadn't responded back?  What about seeing a couple of friends together doing something that you weren't invited to attend when you'd normally all do something together?

So many of these situations and more have happened to me.  If I don't get my mind focused on other things, I'll sit and wonder what I've said or done to create these situations and stew about them.  I'm trying to remember to live and let live and not over-think or over-analyze things.

Please remember friends that the mind is a VERY powerful tool.  When we think negatively about things, it creates negative branches in the brain just as positive branches are created when we think positively.  Truly, our health and lives depend on thinking positively!

https://www.amazon.com/Switched-Brain-Controlling-Thoughts-Emotions/dp/0983346283/ref=sr_1_5?ie=UTF8&qid=1497884079&sr=8-5&keywords=Dr.+Caroline+leaf

Dr. Caroline Leaf has some great information about how the brain works when we think both negatively and positively.  I've included the link above at Amazon for you to check it out.  You can also go to YouTube to see videos as well.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0k1EhN93gIU

While I know life can be overwhelming at times and when we're alone, we can tend to do a LOT of over-thinking, over rationalizing, etc... but try your best to move your focus to more positive things.  Go for a walk, get into your Bible, go to the gym, read a book, watch tv, talk with a friend, whatever you need to do to stop that over-thinking, negative train of thought.

I hope you have a blessed week!

Love,

We're All At Different Levels.................

Hi Gang!  

Here we are on another Friday Eve!  I hope you're having a fabulous day!! 😁

Today I'd like to talk about the fact that we're all at different levels in life, but for today I'm talking spiritually.

I am a Christian and I won't apologize for that.  The Lord has a plan and a purpose for me AND for YOU!  In our spiritual walk we grow line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little and there a little.  It doesn't come to each of us all at once.

No one is at the exact same level and because of that, no one has any right to judge you because of the level you're at.  What I mean is, if you're a baby Christian (new in the Lord), it's ok.  If you've been saved for 10 - 15 years, it's ok.  If you're a well seasoned, mature Christian, it's ok.  

Regardless of where you are in your walk with the Lord, always remember to remain humble and teachable.  We are no better than anyone else.  

I've had conversations with some fellow Christians who have felt guilt & condemnation as a result of hearing a word someone else received.  It's usually not the word that the person received, but how they conveyed that word to others that created the feelings of guilt & condemnation.   It's made the others feel less than or not worthy or that they wouldn't ever be able to live up to a certain standard of what everyone else considers to be a 'Christian'.  It can make them feel as though they're praying wrong or that they don't pray hard enough, etc...

First of all, guilt and condemnation are NOT from God.  We can feel conviction about something that we know we need to work on & correct, but if you're feeling condemned, that's not how God works. 

In our Christian walk together, we aren't to forsake the assembling of ourselves (going to church together & fellow-shipping) because iron sharpens iron (we strengthen each other by coming together).  

But unfortunately, when we do get together, sometimes we can have our own agendas in life and speak forth from our own personal feelings rather than the actual word that God gave to us.  When that happens, people can get hurt or angry, and want to leave the church, which is not what we ever want to do because it's not of God.  

My main point of this blog today is for each of us to be mindful of each other so that we can lift each other up and not tear each other down.  If you have a word from the Lord, be sure to share it if you feel led to.  It can be something powerful that someone needs to hear at that given moment.  Just remember that we're all at different levels spiritually and we'll all continue to grow in God's timing.

1 Thessalonians 5:11The Message (MSG)

^9-11 God didn’t set us up for an angry rejection but for salvation by our Master, Jesus Christ. He died for us, a death that triggered life. Whether we’re awake with the living or asleep with the dead, we’re alive with him! So speak encouraging words to one another. Build up hope so you’ll all be together in this, no one left out, no one left behind. I know you’re already doing this; just keep on doing it.

Love,

  

Recluse........

Hi Gang!

I hope you're off to a fantastic start to your week.  Hard to believe Monday has rolled around yet again!  It seems like it was just Monday! LOL

Let's get right into today's Thought Path...............

I consider myself slightly recluse.  For those who don't know what this means:

Recluse:
shut off or apart from the world; living in seclusion

While I enjoy people, there are times when I just want to shut myself away and be completely alone.

When you work outside the home and you deal with people all day, at least for me, I have a tendency to want to just go home, lock the doors, keep the lights off and be alone.  

I'm sure there are those that think "Seriously?".   Some may ask why I feel that way.  I think we all need 'alone time' in our lives just to re-charge.

I'm here to openly admit that I have a problem.  You're thinking, "Oooooo something juicy!".  Not at all.  My problem is that I over-think most EVERYTHING!  I over-analyze what other people say, what other people do or don't do, trying to read other people's minds/thoughts, etc...  I think most of the reasoning behind that is that I'm trying to figure out of they like me, if they're mad at me or what they're feeling/thinking.  I struggle with just letting things be the way they are without having to figure it all out.

I believe the other reason I over-analyze is because I'm not a barbie doll.  I'm not the cute, little, blonde bombshell that people seem to be attracted to.   I'm quite hard on myself and by being recluse at times, no one can judge me and I won't be judging myself from their judgements.  

I hope that makes sense and I'm not just babbling!  LOL 

As I continue to work on my self-esteem, I pray that you have an awesome week!

I also pray that you're healthy, happy, safe and I pray that you have peace in your life!

Until we meet again............

Love,

 

Comparitonitis......

Hi Gang!! Happy Saturday to you all!

Do you look at magazines?  How about tv?  What about the internet or even just your next door neighbor?  Do you ever compare yourself or what you have to the images you see around you?  Then you, like most people, have comparitonitis.

Why is it that we feel compelled to compare who we are, what we look like or what we have to everyone and everything around us?  I think it's just human nature to do so.  The problem with comparitonitis comes in when those images make us feel 'less than', that we 'don't measure up' to someone else's standards.  That can be an extremely dangerous place.  If we consistently compare ourselves to everything around us including people and the things that they possess, it can make us deeply depressed.

We've always been taught through social media that we need to compare ourselves and our possessions to other things and other people because there's some certain standard that everyone else feels we need to live up to. The only standard that we have to live up to is the standard that is presented to us in the Bible by God.  He alone holds the key to the standard for which we are to live by.

 I am no different than anyone else. I compare myself to the images that I see on TV, magazines, on the Internet, etc. but it's not something that I want to live by. When we see so many of the images on body style, body shape, & body proportion, they aren't the norm.  All you need to do is to go to your local store or mall and look around. These are the real people. They're not perfect they're just human beings.

 In all honesty I feel terribly sorry for so many of the models out there. They starve themselves to look like a stick some even to the point of death and for what? To live up to some man's standard of what a perfect body looks like or should look like? We are each individually created by God in His likeness and image the way He wants us to look.

 Now don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that all comparing is wrong. Sometimes we have to compare some things to make sure that we're staying on track in our lives. The best thing that you can do is to get in a good church and stay there and be with the Church family that will help to build you up and you in turn will help to build them up. God's word tells us that iron sharpens iron. That means that we need each other we help each other to continue to be strong and to grow together.

 I want nothing more than for you to be happy in the skin you're in. Be happy with where you are and what you have. Always remain humble because if you don't you will certainly become humbled. What do I mean by that? If you get too big for your britches God will surely humble you.

Don't ever think that you're better than anyone else or that you cannot be replaced whether it be at your work or even in a position in your church. Everyone is replaceable. That's why it's so important to always remain humble.

Until we meet again my friends, I pray that you are healthy, happy, that you're safe, and I pray that you have peace in your life!

Love,

Heathly Boundaries.............

Hi Gang!  Happy Friday!

We're heading into a new weekend and I hope you enjoy every single moment!

Today's thought path is about Healthy Boundaries!

No matter what type of relationship you're in, there needs to be healthy boundaries in them all.  
  
Whether you're single, married, with or without children, in a friendship, your doctor/patient relationship, ALL relationships need to have healthy boundaries.

I think we sometimes forget this concept because we throw ourselves into life and think we have to be all and do all for everyone around us.  

For me, there is one two letter word that was very difficult for me to say for fear of hurting the other person.  That word is 'No'.  While they may be temporarily disappointed in the moment, it's less painful than saying 'Yes' and putting yourself in an uncomfortable and potentially miserable position.  

A dear friend of mine taught me several years ago that it's perfectly OK to say 'No'.  Before then, it was rarely a part of my vocabulary because I've always been such a people pleaser.

For me, personally, I would rather allow myself to be hurt than to hurt or disappoint someone else.  Now I know better.  Saying 'No' to someone isn't going to completely devastate them or ruin them; temporary disappointment maybe, but it will definitely be short lived.  

You need to know that you can't be all and do all for everyone and that it's ok to say 'No' if you're not wanting to do something.  It's ok to take time out for yourself to have some quiet time.  If you want to join in on whatever the invitation is, that's your choice, but it's also your choice to decline and say 'No'.   

Healthy boundaries are a beautiful thing that can bring great peace and joy into your life!

Love,

 


















 

Eating In Secret............

Hi Everyone!  Happy Hump Day! 😎

We're already half-way through this beautiful week!  The weather has been great, but sounds as though this weekend is going to get humid, so please be careful out there!

Today's thought path is 'Eating in Secret'.  Is this something you've ever done?

I'm guessing some are wondering where my mind is at today?!?!  LOL

All my life I've been a food lover.  There aren't too many things I don't like, but there are a some, like celery, liver, parsnips, turnips, just to name a few.  

In my journey of life, I've always been judged by what I eat.  "You SHOULDN'T eat THAT", or "Don't you think you've ALREADY had enough" or "You can't leave the table until your plate is clean!",  etc...  MIXED SIGNALS!!

In my younger years at home living with my parents, I would buy Little Debbie Swiss Cake Rolls or the Pudding Pies with my allowance, hide them under my bed and eat them in secret at night before bed.  I could easily polish off a whole box of the rolls in one night, but I'd try to stretch them out to 2 or 3 nights.  

When mom would be down cleaning the barn during the day, I'd make a pan of brownies, eat half the pan, not want anyone to know what I'd done, throw out the other half and make a whole new pan!  OR I'd make a smaller batch of chocolate chip cookie dough and eat it raw (YES, with the raw eggs in it and I'm STILL alive to talk about it today! LOL)  I'd have everything cleaned up before she got back up to the house so she wouldn't know what I'd done.

When my brother (got rest his soul, he's been gone for 21 years) would pick on me and say hateful, hurtful things, in my mind I'd say "I'LL SHOW YOU!" and fill up a bowl heaping with ice cream topping it with chocolate syrup or whatever I could find in the frig plus whatever dessert was around like cake, bars, cookies, pie, etc..., take it to my bedroom and eat it all until I was miserable.  At that point I was more focused on the pain I'd inflicted on myself rather than the pain HE had inflicted on me.  It was as if I somehow felt that he was right and I had to punish myself as a result.  Why do we always want to punish ourselves?

In my adult years I just sometimes get strange, judgemental looks.  I'm sure part of it is my over heightened sense of awareness of people's reactions around me.  I'm always reading facial expressions and body language regardless of the situation I'm in.  Big eyes or eye rolls or secret chuckles are very popular.  😜

Part of me has gotten used to it and try to ignore it.  The other part of me cringes inside and wants to just escape to a quiet place alone where I can eat in peace without judgement.  This all leads to today's title ..........Eating in Secret.  

When I eat alone or in secret, there's no one there to judge me or to see exactly what I'm eating.  After years of being called names or being put down, you begin to want to distance yourself from eating around others. 

I love and miss my father dearly (he passed away 24 years ago), but I can still remember something he said to me one cold morning down in the barn while we were milking cows and I had mentioned being cold.  ( It was one of those below zero mornings in an old barn where we stuffed any open hole with straw to block the cold winds )  "I didn't think elephants GOT cold?" he said.  Mind you, I was in junior high at the time and weighed about 170 lbs.  No, I was no twiggy, but one heck of a lot smaller than I am today.  It rattled me to my core and I've had that conversation sitting in the back of my mind ever since that day.  

I'm going to be as 'G' rated here as possible with the next bit of info, but please forgive me as I'm not writing this to offend anyone.  

My ex used to refer to me as a fat a**, a fat f****** sow or pig, told me I was nothing, that I was worthless without him, etc.....  Of course that was all extremely painful as well, yet I would often get blamed if the leftovers in the frig weren't eaten.  Yes, you read that correctly, if they WEREN'T eaten.  Even though there were 4 of us in the home, apparently it was MY SOLE JOB to eat ALL of the leftovers so they didn't go to waste.  (We had chickens at the time, so leftovers that were too old for us never went to waste.)  AGAIN, MIXED SIGNALS!

Part of my blog point today is to be careful what you say to others.  Be kind.  You have no idea the negative effects that harmful words have on people that can last a lifetime.  

Proverbs 18:21

Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.

James 3:5  MSG

A bit in the mouth of a horse controls the whole horse. A small rudder on a huge ship in the hands of a skilled captain sets a course in the face of the strongest winds. A word out of your mouth may seem of no account, but it can accomplish nearly anything—or destroy it!

Also, remember that even if you choose to eat in secret, it doesn't discount the fact of the fat & calories in what you've just eaten.  😱  For me, it's more of not being judged.  I've been trying to eat more clean.  Am I perfect?  Not a chance, but I also don't want to be persecuted when I'm having something sweet.  I can beat myself up quite fine by myself without someone doing it for me.  

EVERYONE, no matter WHO it is, is facing SOME kind of battle.  It may appear, on the outside, that they've got everything 'TOGETHER', all is perfect and there are no issues to be found.  Either they're doing a fantastic acting job or we're not paying close enough attention, because we ALL have issues.   

Just a last note...... No, I don't always eat in secret.  I'm not afraid to eat around others, but I do have my moments of enjoying eating alone, in my home, with the doors locked. LOL

When something is bothering you, rather than eating it away, or drinking it away, or using drugs to numb the pain, the best thing to do is to talk to someone about it.  If it's something deep that you don't feel you can share, try journaling.  It's helped me tremendously!  

Be kind, speak kind words to others and don't forget to be kind to yourself too!!

Love,

Don't Become TOO Available...........

Hi Gang!  Happy Tuesday! 💜

I hop on here when something happens that sparks my mind to share with others because I feel like maybe you've felt the same feelings I'm going through.

The headline speaks volumes into anyone's life, but especially in mine today.  Some may understand and some may be wondering what in the world I mean.

In my life I have been notorious for making myself TOO available.  What I mean by that is that for those in my life that I care deeply about, I've dropped things I'm doing or places I'm going, to make myself available, always running to/for them or being overly available when people need/want things.  

Unfortunately, by making myself TOO available, I over-extend myself and I don't get the same response in return.  As a result, I set myself up for a let down of hurt and heartache.

Don't get me wrong.  I'm not saying you shouldn't do things for others.  That's not the premise for this blog.  It's simply to suggest you don't CONSTANTLY make yourself available.  There is nothing wrong with saying "No" when asked to do something.  That's been a tough concept for me to grasp.  I've always felt that telling someone 'No' would hurt/devastate them and I hate hurting people.  In my life, I'd rather say yes and hurt myself than for others to hurt.  Slowly, I'm learning that sometimes saying 'No' is the only choice and can be more beneficial for my mental and physical health.  The person receiving the 'No' doesn't have to like it or understand it.  That's definitely a tough pill for me to swallow because of not wanting to hurt anyone.  Though tough, I sometimes swallow that bitter pill and realize later it was the best medicine for me at the time.

There is a fine balance in all things in life and we all need HEALTHY boundaries.  I'll do more of a blog on this at another time.

While I'm writing this for my blog, I'm preaching to myself here more than anything.  

When I was married, I ran ALL the time.  Whatever he wanted, I did it.  Wherever he needed me to be, I was there.  Unfortunately, I didn't get the same respect in return.  I find that I'm falling into that same experience in a new relationship.  I'm such a lover and a giver that part of my love language is just doing for people, giving to them and wanted to be with them all the time.  

I guess I'm just too much! LOL  I need to learn to pull back the reigns a bit.  I have done that in some areas of my life.  I've cut out a few extras that were causing me headache and heartache.  That has definitely helped!  When you're in a situation where you are being disrespected and looked down on, you need to re-evaluate why you're in that position.  If nothing can be done to change it, then it may be time to remove it from your life; this can be a friendship, a job situation, an organization affiliation, or any other relationship you have.

Something else I need to work on is not taking things so personally.  I'm notorious for that.  Someone can say or do something that anyone else wouldn't pay attention to, but my mind goes in a million directions and I tend to overthink things.  👅

I don't think we always realize how much we're affected mentally and emotionally by situations in our lives.  If you're anything like me, I take a lot of crap before I explode.  Things keep getting pushed to the back burner, so to speak, until they've built up so much, one little, insignificant thing can  cause a total meltdown.  At first, you wonder where that came from, but when you take a step back and think about all the situations you've been encountering, but not dealing with, it starts to dawn on you where the flood is coming from.

When you are going through something, I encourage you to talk to someone.  You can talk to a relative, a friend, significant other, or even me!  Something else you can do, if you don't feel comfortable 'talking', would be to journal.  I have found that if I can at least get my feelings down on paper, it's taken a load off my mind and I can breathe again.  It's not until you start to talk to someone or journal, that you realize all that you've got pent up inside.  It eats away at us and we don't even realize it.

Stress can do terrible things to a body, so PLEASE be sure to talk to someone or try journaling to work out what's bugging you.  You'll be so glad you did!!

Much love!!

Confidence........... Do you have it?

Happy Friday Eve!  😎🌻🌞

It's so hard to believe it's the 1st of June already.  The year is just FLYING by!

Something that's working on me today is my confidence, or moreover, the lack thereof.  

I've never been an overly confident person in my life.  That's mostly because of my size.  I'm no twiggy by any stretch and I've ALWAYS been reminded, as if I can't see it for myself in the mirror daily! 😉  But for some reason, I guess to make themselves feel better about themselves, many people in my life have put me down because of my weight.

Do you realize that the more you're told something over and over again, you begin to BELIEVE IT?  While it's true that I am too overweight, it's not WHO I am as a person, but people have convinced me over the years that fat = ugly, that fat = worthless, that fat = stupidity, etc, etc, etc...  

Over my 48 (closer to 49) years on this planet, I've been on a plethora of diets.  It's ranged from starvation, to pills, to low fat, to no carbs, the list goes on and on.  Different times I've lost as much as 65 lbs. only to gain it back.  I hang on for just so long and then I'm back to my old habits again.  

It doesn't always take much for me to go back to those old habits.  The sad thing is, I'm not hurting anyone else but myself when I do go back.  

You might be saying........."If you lost 65 lbs, why on EARTH would you let yourself gain it back plus more?".  I think that's a great question.  Unfortunately I don't have a good answer for it.  

When I've been put down in one way or another, I've turned to food for comfort.  Food has never lied to me (thankfully it doesn't talk at all, except for beans! LOL), never cheated on me, never made me feel less than, never made me feel insecure (when I say these things, I mean that's how I felt during the time I was eating the food).  I've eaten so much to stuff myself so that I focus on the miserable stuffed feeling rather than the reason I began eating in the first place.  

I'm going through some deep insecurities in my life right now and trying desperately NOT to eat my feelings away, but that's easier said than done.  

We all go through an abundance of issues in our lives and we all handle them in different ways.  Some people over-exercise, some do drugs, some drink alcohol, some go into a deep depression, and like me, some eat to handle life.  

Is it something I'm proud of?  Absolutely not, but it's been my drug of choice.  I want to be able to cope in healthier ways and I'm trying to teach myself to do that.  For me, it's a slow process.

Wouldn't it be nice to have someone just swoop in and take away all the insecurities we feel so that we wouldn't ever have to feel that way again?  Life just doesn't work that way.  

I'm trying to rely more on God.  Even though I love Him deeply, it's still a struggle because He's not here with me in the flesh.  I know His Spirit is with me, but having Him here as a tangible human being in my midst to talk to would be so much better.

I've had friends and lost them for standing up for my convictions.  That's definitely a lonely place of insecurities, but I would do the same all over again.  

Someone I know has a boyfriend who lives in an apartment.  Someone new happens to be moving in and that someone is a single woman about the same age as her boyfriend.  She's terribly insecure about the whole situation because she and her boyfriend don't live together nor do they live in the same town.  I'm not sure what to tell her that would be a good way to handle her insecurities as I would feel the same way.  She needs to trust him and if he breaks that trust, she'll have no choice, but to move on.  

In the scope of life, loneliness is terribly hard.  No one knows what that feels like until you've walked a mile in those moccasins.  Sometimes we put up with things we wouldn't normally for fear of being lonely again and I know that's where she's at.  I wish I could wrap my arms around her, hug her tight and make every insecurity go away, but I can't.  

Our minds are very powerful and try to make us see and think things that aren't really there.  This girl is already visualizing her boyfriend with the new apartment tenant.  In all fairness, she does have good reason because he hasn't always been the most truthful with her, but she's been trying to give him the benefit of the doubt.  I'm just not sure how much longer she can hold on.  I can only wait in the wings and be here for her regardless of what may happen.  

It's painful watching someone go through tough times in their life and knowing there's nothing you can do to fix it or make it go away.  I guess that's what molds and shapes us into stronger people. 

If you have any suggestions for advice that I can give, please let me know.  We just have to leave it in God's hands and let Him take care of the situation.

Have a great weekend!!